I struggle with being thankful. Most of the time, it's because I’m too busy being worried. If thankfulness were a flower, fear would be a horrible weed. It so quickly chokes out the flower in a slow but sure way.
But sometimes someone comes along and loosens the grip of the “fear-weed.”
This week, the benevolent gardener came by and used an interaction with a friend as an instrument to cut back the growing fear.
I often worry about the future. One particular day, when I was feeling most anxious and buried in my thoughts about finding a career, I got a phone call.
It was my new friend Jimmy, whom I never met.
He was my boyfriend’s best friend in Massachusetts. My boyfriend connected us since Jimmy was building a business and needed help with graphic designing and online marketing.
After shop talk, we conversed about what was going on in our lives. I was not surprised we eventually started talking about the future. That’s all that has been on my mind lately!
Through talking with Jimmy, he shared what trusting in God means to him.
He accepted Christ as his savior when he was 19. He was saved from being pulled into gang life. His life since then has been full of disappointments. People have cut him out because of his beliefs, he severely injured his leg, and he had to quit school to take care of his grandma full-time.
Through it all, he still chooses daily to turn and praise God.
While talking to Jimmy, I started to see his attitude towards life. While he might be frustrated at times, he does not let fear or anger control him.
His trust in God was a refreshing rebuke.
I love the way God mixes things up with how he corrects us. Jimmy’s friendship and his response to life’s difficulties were such a gentle prodding toward a better attitude. And it still hit me like a fresh fish slap to the face.
Who am I to spend so much time doubting the future where God is already present?
Praise God for his faithfulness and direction, as he helped redirect me from doubting his provision by nudging Jimmy to call and check up on his friend.
“Then Jesus said to his disciples:
‘Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.
For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.
Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them.
And how much more valuable you are than birds!
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”